G U I L T

Having two kids is a challenge in so many ways. Sure, it is hard to find time for yourself (thank goodness Elias is in daycare), it is difficult to keep him out of trouble when I am feeding Ezra, there is no time for sleep. But what I find most challenging is the guilt I feel over not having as much time for Elias. I used to do everything for him: Play, help get him ready for school, help put him to bed. Now, he plays a lot on his own, and Matt does a lot more with him. Even on Fridays, when it is just Elias, Ezra and me, I am often too tired to play much, or I am taking care of baby brother. I can tell Elias is having a hard time with it, and it makes me sad. I miss being with my little man Elias.